The Second Night We Hung Out! :D

Crazy how time flies, but this is the second time Justin and I hung out! :D So cute huh?! 

My Valentine

Because it was Valentine's day, I wanted to do a little tribute to MY valentine. :D

My lovely Valentine, is Justin Wayne Ruiz. 

He is 6'6, Brown hair, blue/grey eyes. 

Things that make him perfect in my eyes: 

His laugh. It is my favorite when he is watching T.V, and I can hear it in the other room. 

When he smiles at me. 

The way he loves his mother. 

The way he loves his family. 

His constant nag to get me to not gossip. 

When he cleans the house. 

When he does laundry. 

They way he acts with our puppy, Baylee. ( it is adorable) 

When he kisses me goodnight. It is never enough, I always want more. 

When he holds me until I fall asleep, and kisses my shoulder before he lets go. 

When he texts me every morning to tell me to have a good day. 

When he texts me in general. 

The butterfiles he gives me. 

When he calls me for no reason, just to say hello. 

That he has to have a "crotch" pillow, and a fan to sleep. 

The way he smells after he showers. 

The way he smells when he gets home from work. 

He is constantly looking out for me, making sure I am okay. 

Him being protective of me. 

The shows he watches. 

The way he holds my hand. 

Oh, I could go on and on. He is such an amazing person and I feel as if people should feel lucky to know him. 

:D I love you baby! Forever, and always! :D 

Updates galore.

I told my self at the beginning of the year that I would post at least once a week. Do you see how well that happened? I was thinking to myself the other day " I need to get on and post something"....But the more I thought about it..... I had nothing to blog about.

I was talking to my friends and work, thinking how boring my life is. Saying that "nothing exciting never happens". But, recently I have come to realize that EVERYDAY is exciting. Everyday is a gift.

I have to really sit back and realize how many blessings I have. Every day I wake up to a beautiful life, breathing. I really need to take a step back and realize how much god has given to me.

Recently, I went to the doctor and was diagnosed with PCOS.Which is poly cystic ovary syndrome. I cannot tell you how bad I hate this disease. First when he told me I had it, I cried. Why? Because it is very, very hard to have kids with this disease. What is does is lowers your estrogen levels which makes it very hard to be fertile. Yeah, I was very angry. At first I was thinking to myself, "what would I do with myself if I couldn't have children". Oh goodness, that made me even more angry. Let's just put it this way... I was put here on earth, to find my husband and make beautiful children. TO make a beautiful family. I cannot think or imagine what my life would be with out children!

Well, the doctor gave me this prescription that is supposed to increase my estrogen levels, and make me fertile. It has been one month since I have been on it, and Justin and I have decided to "try" and have kids. We have actually been trying for quite sometime now, but because of this stupid disease..... Ugh.

So, wish me luck. Once I am able to see my child in my arms, I will be thankful for this disease. Only because it made me stronger. But for now... I still hate it.

It also gives me horrible pains. From what I was told, cysts form on every girls ovaries, however they are small. Cysts are formed on my ovaries, and they grow really big, until they burst. Holy Jesus... they hurt.

Anyways, to sum up my blog today, I may sound a little negative. But, I really hope things start happening soon for me and Justin. I want to be able to have a beautiful baby to blog about. I cannot wait to become a mother! :D And I am pretty sure Justin cannot wait to become a father.

Until then, we have Baylee bug. Ohhhh how I love her! :D