Updates galore.

I told my self at the beginning of the year that I would post at least once a week. Do you see how well that happened? I was thinking to myself the other day " I need to get on and post something"....But the more I thought about it..... I had nothing to blog about.

I was talking to my friends and work, thinking how boring my life is. Saying that "nothing exciting never happens". But, recently I have come to realize that EVERYDAY is exciting. Everyday is a gift.

I have to really sit back and realize how many blessings I have. Every day I wake up to a beautiful life, breathing. I really need to take a step back and realize how much god has given to me.

Recently, I went to the doctor and was diagnosed with PCOS.Which is poly cystic ovary syndrome. I cannot tell you how bad I hate this disease. First when he told me I had it, I cried. Why? Because it is very, very hard to have kids with this disease. What is does is lowers your estrogen levels which makes it very hard to be fertile. Yeah, I was very angry. At first I was thinking to myself, "what would I do with myself if I couldn't have children". Oh goodness, that made me even more angry. Let's just put it this way... I was put here on earth, to find my husband and make beautiful children. TO make a beautiful family. I cannot think or imagine what my life would be with out children!

Well, the doctor gave me this prescription that is supposed to increase my estrogen levels, and make me fertile. It has been one month since I have been on it, and Justin and I have decided to "try" and have kids. We have actually been trying for quite sometime now, but because of this stupid disease..... Ugh.

So, wish me luck. Once I am able to see my child in my arms, I will be thankful for this disease. Only because it made me stronger. But for now... I still hate it.

It also gives me horrible pains. From what I was told, cysts form on every girls ovaries, however they are small. Cysts are formed on my ovaries, and they grow really big, until they burst. Holy Jesus... they hurt.

Anyways, to sum up my blog today, I may sound a little negative. But, I really hope things start happening soon for me and Justin. I want to be able to have a beautiful baby to blog about. I cannot wait to become a mother! :D And I am pretty sure Justin cannot wait to become a father.

Until then, we have Baylee bug. Ohhhh how I love her! :D